I’m enduring the pain of lumbociatalgia, I’m hurt again, both physically and emotionally, when I thought everything was getting better,

I hoped to turn things around this year, but bad luck hit me out of nowhere. Enduring the pain has become my reality as setbacks keep happening one after another. An injury flared up again, and I haven’t fully healed yet. The person I love most broke my trust. It’s not easy to share this since I was so reserved until last year. It’s tough to admit my failure, but I’m not complaining; I’m sharing to heal. This is one more step forward.

There will surely be more steps because this isn’t just a minor setback. It’s been the hardest fall I’ve had in a long time. But I’m starting to go with the flow. I’m beginning to recover again because neither sharp pain nor deep disappointment will break me.I thought I might be on autopilot for a while, and normally, I would have left it that way. Not this time; I won’t let adversity overwhelm me. I’m back in the ring. I won’t rush; I’ll take things slowly, both emotionally and physically.

After a long time enduring the pain, I’m going to focus on myself again—just me. Last year, I gave my all in a relationship, something I hadn’t done before. Three years ago, I poured my heart into an ambitious project. Life is reminding me that nothing comes for free; everything is borrowed. I thought I could have it all, but in the end, I got nothing. I accept that, starting over doesn’t scare me. Neither lies nor injuries will bring me down. I haven’t managed to get my smile back. I thought I had, but the person I trusted took it away to find her own happiness. Good for her. Physically, I can’t push myself too hard; I’ll take my time to rebuild. If the pain flares up again, I’ll strengthen myself even more. It might take a while, but I never back down.

I recognize and accept that this hasn’t been my best year and won’t be either. But I’ll get through it; that’s the only way to move forward despite the pain. I’ll finish this year as best as I can. I’m not trying to improve or make the most of the year; I’ll just let it go.

El siguiente año será mejor.